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Huff Puff

Huff puff
Puff puff

I had to take a breath
I must be addicted or something
To the disappointment 
The idea of never improving

To stare at the stars 
And wish for the better
Only to break down
Due to a simple number 

What is a number?
A letter? A thought?
Are we truly free?
control our destiny?

What is destiny?
Only of slim chance
No. Not chance.
Miserable hope.

Can hope be miserable?
After all it’s not a reality
It’s the thought of better
But lost in imagination 

How vast is imagination?
Can we even create?
Or do we just retell what is done?
And lie of our own abilities.

I wish for the abilities of the heroes
To be able to swing past buildings
To be able to fly or have all that money 
But maybe I don’t?

Heroes live tragic lives
To hide and continually fight.
All for what? To eventually be hated
Or be told you weren’t needed.

What is that I need?
I think I might need another breath.
I know I’m not special.
I think I’m not special.

Huff puff
Puff puff

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Misc.

Why the name change?

You know it’s funny. When I started this blog, it was just a space to record some fun stuff I was trying out. Then it became more medical school centered. I mean, school is a huge part of my current life, so I guess that change was only natural. However, I actually didn’t like it! I felt like my whole identity was becoming school-related. As much as I tried different things and try to tell them, I still felt stuck in a way.

To be short, this summer was much needed. While I continued my studies, after all, boards are important. I used a lot of my time to also travel with my family. I saw many wonderful things and experienced much more. Through it, I gained a whole new appreciation for the arts and more understanding of the different cultures in this beautiful world. Through it all, I started exploring more into various hobbies and activities such as photography. Though I don’t consider myself any good, I want to share them. To do so, I needed a space, a space that isn’t confined by one subject but can be literally anything I want. Thus, I chose this blog. I mean the beauty of blogging is that we, the creators, shape it to who we are and if the audience doesn’t like that, well I don’t plan on living off this, so who cares? I just hope that some people would find this blog entertaining, but I don’t want to sacrifice my voice through the process of appeasing others. And boom! the name change, the change to something more general. One thing that I constantly have to work on is shutting off my work brain. This is one thing my significant other always mentions. Like I keep mentioning with my posts, I hope this blog helps with that.

Anyway, I feel like I rambled on for too long now. To everyone that read this, even if it’s just one line, thanks! And to everyone that read this and liked it, even a bigger thanks! 🙂

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Me doing me Misc. Personal

I disappeared again

I think the title says the gist of what I am saying. I’ve been off this platform for a long time. A good part of that was time, mainly trying to figure out my way of studying, even more, to make it more efficient. However, another part of that is because I simply became a little disinterested in the blog itself. Mainly because I simply realized that I do not always want to talk about school or science. This realization came after I made some posts about my travels through Seattle.

Truth is, it’s easy to get very narrow-minded on a particular genre, and it’s not easy to climb out of that mindset. I love science and medicine, that will always be a huge part of me…I mean I am pursuing a career in one for crying out loud. However, the world is bigger than that. There are other subjects to learn and talk about. Truth be told, that element is what I miss a lot about my college and taking all those liberal art courses.

I actually didn’t fully realized what I was doing until very recently when I was with my significant other. You see we are in a long distance relationship right now, but I had the opportunity to be with that person for what seemed like a short time. I say all this because that person has to ability to always make me open my eyes a little more and see the beauty in the world in which I would have never even considered to exist. And truth be told, I think that is what I want to try to write about. Simply put, when focusing on one or two things for so much for so long, it’s easy to crash and burn. It won’t mean I won’t ever write about science or my educational experiences, but I want to write more than just that. In other words, I guess I am getting to a point where I am using this blog for its actual intended purposes and that is as a space to write whatever.

For example, I am in a band now! Of course, practice times are a bit sporadic due to the busyness of schooling. But music is always a passion of mine and it’s nice to find myself still trying to keep up with it whenever I can.

Anyway, I feel like I rambled on for what was simply to say that the world is a big and fun place filled with wonderful adventures and activities people can do, and I want to write about that.

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Medical School Today's Thoughts

Medical School: second semester vs first semester

As far as I am aware of, at least most medical schools have it so that your first semester would consist of the basic science courses. In other words, it is second semester when you start going more into a system based system, studying the illnesses and drugs for that system. Since they are differently structured, how does second semester compare to the first?

You will hear a lot of different things because everyone is a bit different, so take what I say with a grain a salt. However, so far, second semester has been tremendously better. Now I know it is still the beginning, but I remember my state around this time last semester. Compared to that, I feel a lot more at ease and confident in learning the material, it also has a logical flow to it which is vastly different from the subject jumps you get with all your basic science courses.

Of course, there is an element of you getting used to the barrage of material. Furthermore, you do get better at studying and managing your time. At least you really should, else you will feel the burn again. However, with everything mentioned above, things will start to follow more of a smooth path and you start finding some time for yourselves, and this is very important. You need to take care of yourself, otherwise you might not be able to take care of others at optimal capacity. It doesn’t matter what it means to take care of yourself, though I’d say healthy eating habits, sleeping habits, and exercise are the biggest three. However, there is the mental aspect of it as well. That means some people find relief from eating out with friends on occasion, or playing video games for an hour a night. Find a way to do that while not compromising your studying, then you will find yourself able to continue to study for longer periods of time because there is that reward.

There might be several of you who know all this before school, because you learned it in undergraduate, high school, wherever. In that case, good for you! I truly mean that, I am just speaking of from what I had to learn about myself within just one year. This path definitely requires some maturity growth.

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Me doing me Medical School Personal

What now? Me getting Organized.

Classes are back in session. The best part of second semester first year is no more anatomy labs. While some people enjoy them, I am not the hugest fan for multiple of reasons. But that’s for another time. I will say I am a bit sad to return to the grind after relaxing and experiencing fun things on break, but I am trying to stay positive. Afterall, we study hard so that we help people. Also side note, the importance in me saying to “help people” instead of “saving lives”.

Anyway, with this semester, I want to become more organized around my studies and this blog as well. I guess I never really knew this, but I’m the type of learner that likes to jump around and learning whatever interests me at the time. I used to think I just wanted all the knowledge, and I do. But if I am honest with myself, then I do jump topic to topic a lot. Therefore, some structure would do me some good.

For this blog in particular, I am thinking about posting stuff I have learned for that day, week, or something just as kind of a review tool for me to make sure I stayed within the topics I needed to. Again this platform was mainly for me to just say my thoughts, hence this blogging style format. I just hope people have enjoyed my content so far, and it seems several have which I am very thankful for. Anyway that’s all I have so far, thanks for reading!

Logging off,

J

 

P.S. please feel free to leave any comments or questions on any posts.

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Me doing me Misc. Personal

December Adventures Seattle Part 4

In one of my adventures last December, I was exploring the city of Seattle, Washington. Here is Part 4 out of 4.

Part 4: Planes and Magic.

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I am a fan of Harry Potter. Now, I wouldn’t say I am the biggest fan. I don’t play

Quidditch—yes, people do play a game that is supposed to mimic Quidditch—and I don’t know every small fact about every character. I will say, however, I do own the books and the wands. I never really needed to own the movies because of ABC specials, but that is besides the point. Now, you might be wondering why I am talking about Harry Potter so much. Well that is because of University of Washington. Their library actually looks very similar to the eating hall in the movies. Furthermore, with all the books, I did feel a sense of magic and wonder in the air. Makes me wish I attended there for undergrad.

After the magic, I visited the Museum of Flight. It was not the biggest museum, but it was fun and neat. Don’t know really what to say about it other than that. Here is a picture I took, however.20181220_140853.jpg

This concludes my blogging about my Seattle Adventures. It was a fun trip and I saw lots of wonderful things. There was one huge negative, however. The rain! But what can you do? Anyway, thanks for reading.

Signing off,

J

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Me doing me Misc. Personal Today's Thoughts

Thoughts during break

So for break, I have been traveling around, exploring. Upon this, I realized something about myself. I used to want to live in the suburbs or in a small town. I like the quiet and peace that comes with it. However, I started fancying the idea of a bigger city. I think it’s because of the energy I feel every time I just walk passed down the walls of the buildings. Everyone has something they are up to, and you just become lost in the sea of ideas and actions. There is life in it. It’s exciting. It’s adventurous, and I like adventure.

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Medical School Today's Thoughts

“What ifs” in Medical School

I feel like I see this more in medical school than in any other academic institution I have been in, and that is the “what ifs”. Having talked to several people, I know it is not just me. When school started, I was very optimistic and happy. The hardest part was over right? Well, no. It was just a bump on a long road. And that idea seems to aid in the manifestation of “what ifs”. There is so much done for that acceptance letter it feels like a contract.  I must continue on and finish otherwise all that hard effort would have been for nothing.

Now, I am not saying I regret choosing to pursue medicine. However, I am trying to explain where this what if mentality may come from. With all the pressures to succeed, the what ifs appear. “What if I can’t keep up with this pace of learning?” “What if I can’t get a passing score?” “What if I can’t remember this detail?” “What if I am not preparing enough for boards?” “What if I laugh at the word ‘frenulum?’”

While the last one might not be as relatable to everyone, the others probably are. The thing is not like I haven’t had similar thoughts before in the past. They just have not been as reoccurring and frequent. Even now as I type this, I am having these thoughts. This is interesting because of the development from when I first started. These thoughts while still frequent are becoming more like murmurs on a crowded street. I started not caring at them, and that happens. I am told things will get harder and worse. Yet, we will become so apathetic about the pain we move on. I get why things have to be this way, but just seems kind of unfortunate. But that is just my thought for today.

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Medical School Today's Thoughts

Thanksgiving is Tomorrow, What a Medical Student Will Be Doing

Thanksgiving is tomorrow and therefore, I do not have class for the remainder of this week. I, personally, am going home to spend time with my parents. But, I do know many people who are staying at school. While it is a nice break from everything, I probably am going to study for parts of it. I say this because I wanted to address different ways people are thinking about using this break. I know several people who are burnt out and just need a break from studying, so they are really going to relax and enjoy themselves. Now, I am not saying those people are not doing the smart thing. In fact, if they need a break then by all means they need a break so they can come back and study efficiently. I say this because I found myself in such a state about 2 weeks ago. I just could not look at a textbook anymore and retain anything.

Looking back it was actually an interesting experience. I have never reached a state where my brain actually rejected any new information of a subject. However, I just took some time to back away from studying and do some self-maintenance like going to the gym and lifting heavy stuff. I am feeling refreshed and functional again and that is probably why I am planning on studying through break. There are multiple ways to get through this, but like any other sappy Thanksgiving post you will see on the internet, it is nice to remind ourselves of the things we are thankful to have which ultimately factor in our ability to get through things (and I did just type that with a Ryan Remolds voice in my head). I am thankful for my family, friends, and SO. I am also thankful for you, whoever is reading this. This blog has been a great place for a pause and reflection which has been nice. And While it is very new, and personally I think it’s not that great of a blog, I still get a few readers who like the content and this is awesome!

Anyway, Happy Turkey day

Your friendly neighborhood student signing off.

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Misc. Today's Thoughts

Why I don’t trust News Articles about Science.

This was a recent topic of conversation among my friends and I thought I might as well write my two cents here for it. As the title suggests, I do not trust news articles about science, specifically ones that says, “New study reveals “blank”. The reason being, I tend to see a lot of articles getting the science wrong.

Now, I just want to say I am not trying to sound pretentious at all. It’s just I remember there being a time where I would get the latest science news from the news. However, with further education, I started to see more and more errors in these articles.

Sometimes, the statements were flat wrong. Such as a misunderstanding of what certain things are. I remember one article just missing the mark on the concept of Glycolysis. However, I usually find the articles over exaggerating a study and not really looking at it critically. For example one article may have looked into a small protein in the body that may rise due to a particular food and some studies seem to say there is a slight connection between that protein and weight gain. With that, the news article may boldy claim, “new study reveals blank to cause weight gain”. It’s just not an accurate representation and actually worrisome because that is how misleading information can spread more and more. Every new research needs to be read critically with what the findings actually mean and the experimental setup to obtain those findings. If we all do that instead of just connecting A to B or making up that A is B, then maybe we wouldn’t see things like, “anti-vaccinations”. But that is just my two cents.